I started this blog for others to see how the calling of the Lord has and will transform our lives. Jeanette and I lived in Muncie over 2 years ago and while there we grew to know the wonderful people and community of MAC. The people we met and loved will always be dear to us. I felt my walk with the Lord was strong because of these people. We were a part of something good and it felt good.
Then we moved to Fort Wayne and I fell asleep-spiritually. It wasnt' like a spiritual nap it was more like a coma. Looking back now it reinforces how fickle I am. That I can flop so quickly. In 2+ years we made it to church less than 10 times and failed miserably at making any new friends and becoming a part of any community. I became numb to the voice of God and had difficulty in feeling the need for prayer. I became caught up in the day to day grind of -go to work, to make the money, to pay the bills, to drive the car, to go to work . . . rinse and repeat.
This is not to say that there was no joy in my life . . .not at all. We were blessed with Anderson who words cannot begin to convey the love I have for him and the love he brings to our family. Jeanette and I still loved each other and enjoyed each other. But I think every person at some point in there life looks at how they spend there time and says "What the *%!!* have I been doing?" This is what happened with me. I only have a certain amount of time on this earth. What am I going to do with it? Am I going to build up a retirement fund so I can kick back when I am older? Am I going to work and work and work and run in the rat wheel for nothing? Am I going to go out of my way and help someone with anything?
I knew about Mark and Ange Guinn planning on going to Ireland. I then read an email by Jodi and Darryl about them going to Nepal and I thought " That would be really cool to have that freedom to go and do something like that." Then I realized that they have that "freedom" because they made choices in there lives to make that happen. Then God with a roll of the eyes and loud exhale said, "Finaly he gets it". If I we want to serve God truly then we can. We just have to commit to it. At this same time, Jeanette had been having the same feelings-getting restless, wanting to be a part of community, wanting to live intentionally for God. We had always said that we were willing to consider missions-what a copout. We needed to make an intentional decision to live for God. So that is what we did. We prayed about it and felt that we were supposed to go to Ireland with Mark and Ange.
We have committed to going and living in community. We have no idea what this looks like or how it will happen, but we are trusting in God's plan. We do not know what is going to happen. We have begun looking into the details and seeing what it is going to take to make this happen.
We are really excited to meet people were they are..... and fall in love with them.
If you feel moved by God please pray for us to have clear direction and please pray for the people of Northern Ireland.
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